Hello, it’s me again. I know you might be thinking I fell off the map, well you are right in many ways I did. My life is way different than when I first introduced myself, I could go and delete that blog, but it is who I was/am. Just as you can’t erase your past neither can I soooo. I will reintroduce myself now, I will not get into the big gap from my previous post till now today. However, I will probably share bits of that part of me along the way.
I am Christiy McCoy, I still live in the great state of Texas, I am married to my amazing husband Brian, we live under our roof together with our miniature poodle Bailey. Some important things to note… I am sick (with what doesn’t matter at this point, may share later down the road) what you do need to know is due to my illness it affects my hands, feet and memory, and I get really bad migraines, so if you see poor grammar or misspelled words please forgive me and show grace. I never knew I would come to love spell check and predictive text so much as now, pen and paper do not offer those benefits and I get frustrated- like the other day in church when I was taking notes and couldn’t remember how to spell a word, Brian wrote it for me so I could see how it was spelled. Oh well. I was very grateful for Brian helping me though, just frustrated. I can’t even remember what the word was, it was a simple one. I simply couldn’t remember how to spell, and I always loved spelling and kind of prided myself on the ability to do it well. I might have stunk in many subjects other than spelling. Though, I worked hard and on the struggle bus for quite awhile, till I found my studying methods and habits that worked for my unique brain, and learning disabilities. I ended up graduating with my bachelors degree in Early Childhood Education- Sigma Cum Laude (equivalent to A/B honor roll). Did I retake courses I took my first year of college while I found my study habits, yes, yes, I did. Did I during that time cry, in my Algebra courses’ professor’s office yes, yes, I did…. Sorry, Mrs. Ross, she never gave up on me… so neither did I during that season. Anyway that was a rabbit trail sorry y’all.
Any way…. I am still on this journey. I am trying to be the woman that God wants me to be, y’all the Refiner’s fire is hard and hot and frustrating yet, I know the end result will be worth it.
Today in the Bible reading, 1 Peter 1-19, side: note these are from the Bible reading plan in Lifeway’s Sunday School material, also using my NIV Study Bible. Now, I won’t be plagiarizing. Here is my reflection:
I am a woman of unclean lips and so unworthy of God and His grace, which still amazes me. Yet, I am redeemed, by God through Jesus’ sacrifice. I feel so unworthy. Do I think I will or should be a perfect believer and child of God, yes, yes I do. However, I know that can not be accomplished on this side of Glory, but I know I must try or allow Him to mold me in His image. I again went down a bunny trail, but I think it is important for y’all to note that I am not perfect nor do I think I am, I am just like anyone else, trying….. so here is my notes. We “will have grief in all (ALL) kinds of trials…. To be proved genuine.” Ouch, I felt that! Proved genuine, I am soooo not matching up with this, I fail daily, I think of my past and all the many times I failed Him. It also, hurts because I know I am lacking, after all the many TRIALS I have been through, I still am not worthy. “As the dog returning to it vomit” gross! I fail, I fail, I fail, Yet God’s Amazing Grace says I am worthy of the price He paid for me. I also, feel the pain still of some of the trials I have faced. I in my own self and strength can’t understand why I had to endure those trials, or understand how those horrible trials would be used to bring Glory to God is beyond me. Yet, today when I read this verse I had teardrops, since I know I am still not as genuine as I need to be. We are also to remember Christ Himself suffered many trials even to the point of blood sweat, beatings, mockery, betrayal, disowned, alone, bled and died; just to name a few. To think He did that for me…. For me? For us. I can’t begin to thank Him enough for His everlasting redeeming grace. So, while I go through trials and you go through trials remember we are not alone. We also, need to evaluate ourselves and see if we are being genuine and holy, set apart. He set us free! This obviously doesn’t mean that we won’t continue to have trials, but that we can rest in knowing we are being prepared, to be ready for our day of completion, blessed and delivered. I know that is often easier said than done, but sing to Him, Pray to Him in whatever trial you might or are faced with ask Him for strength, ask Him how you and your trial(s) can be used to bring Him glory and help edify fellow believers and the lost.
Christiy
3-11-2025
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